i am, you are

a worrywart
a friend
a giggler
an idealistic realist
a lazy bum
a listener
an unexpected leader
a list-maker
a foodie
a land/water/nature/dog-lover
a long-lost musician
a hopeless warbler
a messy gardener
a rose-smeller
a snail killer
a slow runner
a happy tinkerer
a reluctant adult
an aunt
a technologist
a word-maker-upper
a possible hippie
a lot more

time is of the essence..

.... um. i feel like there needs to be a moment of silence after that deep thought.

actually, i can't really remember where that sentence was used. it's so familiar (and hokey) though; maybe in my high school yearbook? i should know that, i was an editor after all, but i can't remember. maybe it's something my high school teachers emphasized, or was it famous for another reason?

anyway. hokey, forgettable, or not, it's mighty mighty true. sometimes, i feel like i don't use time that well (like, maybe now, for instance). but at the same time, it makes zero sense to me to fill all my days with constant, continuous activity because then, i don't get any ... moments. like -- the times where you sit down in a breathful humph and just enjoy the breeze, the sun, a chance to breathe.

i want to:
climb, run, swim more
learn spanish, japanese, italian. brush up on french. re-learn chinese.
go back to photography and do it better this time around.
travelllllllllllllll
see more friends, but without the hassles of scheduling, planning, driving, arranging.
figure out my car(s) -- and everything involved in that (a lot)
make two much-delayed dentist and optometrist appointments.

see, now i'm delving into tasks. borrrriiiiiiiiing.

time is of the essence. essence -- could also mean smell. i wonder if time smells like anything?

no april fools

i've been thinking about retirement.

ug, weird.

retirement, as in 401k's and Roth IRAs and all that jazz about diversifying your retirement portfolios, figuring out investment strategies, and determining what my short-term financial goals are.

whaaaaaaaaaaat.

short-term financial goals? make money to live off of. not a bad goal, right? now that i put it in writing, it looks even better. my brother asks, "what about paying for grad school?" well. let's see, that depends on when i'm going to grad school -- and that also relates to what i'd be studying at grad school and where i'd be going. all hypothetical, all a year (or many more) away.

the housing market is also GREAT for buying right now. no really. but do i really want to buy a house? i think i'd rather spend all my money on traveling. but a house would be kinda cool -- and snazzy for remodeling. wendy made an interesting point today when she said that she wasn't interested in getting a posh car. she'd rather spend it on traveling (or clothes). i'll take the former, for sure.

or a boat. they're selling for really low prices these days. everyone's in a depression... maybe i should save more.

maybe i'm just feeling a little bit weary about the upcoming months. l calls it wanderlust. haha.