i'm currently living through a pandemic. i suppose that sentence could be far worse -- i died in the 2020 pandemic, or i'm currently one of millions sick with COVID-19. those latter sentences are false, thank god, so the more appropriate one is that I'm living in it, through it, during it. And surviving as best i can. i hope this situation continues as is, hard as it may be.
i don't think anyone expected 2020 to be.. like this. it was supposed to be a new American presidential election; the Summer Olympics in Tokyo; the year we had a warehouse and studio to design, develop, create!; the year that I took a break?; the first full year of being parents; etc etc. and now, we're taking it hour by hour, day by day, quarantine week by quarantine week. it's weird, it's a little surreal, and there doesn't seem to be an end, nor a return to normal. so, well, that's interesting.
the construction workers are prancing about each and every day, and I wonder if they're going to be okay. or if we are, as we pass each other on the sidewalk. I know they individually don't necessarily have a choice to work or not work (though they could wear PPE!), and I know that choices aren't so easy these days. but then again, our next door neighbors are having Easter BBQs, so. sheesh, I dunno. also, Georgia is planning on re-opening their essential bowling alleys and essential tattoo parlors, so god only knows what is or isn't essential. politics divide even science, or is it the other way around? science divides into politics? I wonder how true it is that some people just won't be affected by COVID-19. i mean, i HOPE that I'm not affected. but i get it -- physically vs emotionally vs economically.
L is no longer working, thanks to investor fears and the tanking of the global economy, so there's that. at least we're not tossing W back and forth between video meetings like we did the first 3 weeks. that sucked monkey balls. the dawgs are neither content nor confused. they're still not getting any attention... ha. we're now nearing the end of week 5 of shelter-in-place in the Bay Area, with restrictions getting tighter week to week. now it's face masks mandated in public, especially if you can't maintain a 6-ft social distance. last week more parks and outdoor spaces closed. hiking is crowded! boo hiss. hiking was a saving grace for the first 2 weeks when it was clean, clear, and spacious, even when wet and muddy. now I'm less inclined to breathe the (GERMS!) air. paranoia? yes, likely.
and what do we do about nanny-share? and how do I maintain this juggle of time and attention? and i miss going to the grocery store and library! and whine whine wine wine beer beer. L can't keep cooking forever (though meals sure are tasty), and I might go insane if I can't just clean and organize and garden for 3 straight days soon. also, ohmygod, so much writing needed for National Academies. also I worry about the lack of social interactions for bubby. but ultimately, in some ways, he's living his best 11-month-old life. how funny a pandemic is.
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