oc.to.ber
mit made me a night owl. i can fall asleep, without any problems, at 3pm in the afternoon, but at 1am in the morning, with only 6 hours of sleep on the horizon, i'm still wide awake. blink blink. yup, still amazingly coherent.
there's something about the night.. it's dark. and peaceful. and because the rest of the world (in your time zone at least) has settled down and crawled into bed, you're finally alone with your thoughts. you, yourself. just the tick of a clock or the hum of the air conditioner or the pop of a lightbulb shining in the darkness. i admit that shadows still scare me sometimes.. but at the same time, i can do a pretty cool shadow puppet of a dog. :)
at night, my thoughts are allowed to drift and wander wherever they want. no forced organization, and no explanations about why i jumped subjects from political analysis to laundry detergent to gummy worms. you're free. you can ramble, you can drool.
fall and spring nights are the best, methinks. it's that weather factor -- cooler air, light breezes, falling leaves or flowering buds. summer nights are still muggy; winter nights are, duh, ass-cold. but the in-between seasons work out pretty nicely. i wonder what happens if i end up living in a non-seasonal area like california or hawaii. i don't remember enough of florida except for the nasty, horrid, blood-sucking, striped and buzzing mosquitoes that always menacingly swooped towards my innocent and unfortunately exposed skin. okay so i don't like mosquitoes.. who does?
it's october in the nation's capital. suddenly. october came suddenly.. wasn't it just august? i swear i missed a few weeks in there... october always signifies something for me... but this year, i can't quite figure out what it means. for the past 4 years, the coming of october designated: "steph, you're in big doo-doo, time to really start learning this stuff".. in high school, i think it meant that i actually began to learn new things in class finally. oh weird, what similarities.
but this october, it's just a continuation of what i started in june. almost 4 months of this "real world" stuff.. and i slowly begin to understand that the "real world" label is so fake. haha, irony once more. the world is always real. isn't it?
there's something about the night.. it's dark. and peaceful. and because the rest of the world (in your time zone at least) has settled down and crawled into bed, you're finally alone with your thoughts. you, yourself. just the tick of a clock or the hum of the air conditioner or the pop of a lightbulb shining in the darkness. i admit that shadows still scare me sometimes.. but at the same time, i can do a pretty cool shadow puppet of a dog. :)
at night, my thoughts are allowed to drift and wander wherever they want. no forced organization, and no explanations about why i jumped subjects from political analysis to laundry detergent to gummy worms. you're free. you can ramble, you can drool.
fall and spring nights are the best, methinks. it's that weather factor -- cooler air, light breezes, falling leaves or flowering buds. summer nights are still muggy; winter nights are, duh, ass-cold. but the in-between seasons work out pretty nicely. i wonder what happens if i end up living in a non-seasonal area like california or hawaii. i don't remember enough of florida except for the nasty, horrid, blood-sucking, striped and buzzing mosquitoes that always menacingly swooped towards my innocent and unfortunately exposed skin. okay so i don't like mosquitoes.. who does?
it's october in the nation's capital. suddenly. october came suddenly.. wasn't it just august? i swear i missed a few weeks in there... october always signifies something for me... but this year, i can't quite figure out what it means. for the past 4 years, the coming of october designated: "steph, you're in big doo-doo, time to really start learning this stuff".. in high school, i think it meant that i actually began to learn new things in class finally. oh weird, what similarities.
but this october, it's just a continuation of what i started in june. almost 4 months of this "real world" stuff.. and i slowly begin to understand that the "real world" label is so fake. haha, irony once more. the world is always real. isn't it?
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